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Chiara Baldini

I was part of the very first ETB and LABS which happened in Portugal in 2014 and following years. Initially I was a bit doubtful because I was very busy and was not sure I had the space to get into it fully, but then my partner Diogo managed to convince me and so we went. I remember we were both so excited by the information we were receiving daily that at the end of the sessions we would run to speak to Juliana and David (owners of the retreat center where the ETB took place) to tell them all we were learning. I also remember having a talk with Juliana right after the workshop, I took the chance of an extraordinary openness to share my feelings with her about some difficult topics and while I was talking to her I remember thinking: wow, this is really working!! I have much more trust in sharing my inner truth, being aware of which emotions I am feeling and how to use them to express the different messages sent by my body, this is amazing! After this first positive experience, me and Diogo took the decision to go to Germany to do a LAB with Michael and Michaela. Again, the LAB proved to be very transformational, also very deep and very challenging, more than the ETB, but nevertheless rewarding in terms of results. I started to become more aware of which were my dynamics in regards to the way I expressed or not my emotions. Especially it was a big surprise to see how much anger I was repressing under a huge load of sadness... and how that anger was stored deep inside me from a very early age. Getting in touch with the feelings of me as a child was very scary and very touching... oh man, that girl was so hurt! And that was a surprise to me because I always thought I had an ok childhood with ok parents... but actually getting in toouch with that pain allowed me over the course of the next years to go through the deepest inner shifts that I could have ever imagined...

When we came back to Portugal we invited M&M to hold the first LAB there, while also our closer friends started joining and we embarked in a three year phase during which we did about 6 LABs in total. Being able to follow this journey with my partner and my closer friends has been one of the most deeply rewarding and healing experiences I could have ever done. We saw each other in the deepest of our despair in dealing with the darkest of our shit, we supported each other in finding the courage and the power to come out of the places were we were stuck, we played each other's mums, dads, sisters, bosses, sons, in a thousand different processes... We laughed our heads off and cried our eyes out and shouted to the top of our lungs and it was glorious. We celebrated each other's victory with genuine tears in our eyes, knowing for ourselves that each small step was actually like reaching a huge milestone to regain our freedom from our own inner limitations. We will never be the same again, individually and as a group and I hold the deepest gratitude to PM and to M&M in particular for being there for us with all their dedication and skillfullness. I would recommend PM to everyone and I actually do that all the time, including organizing various sessions with PM trainers in the festivals where I have been working, like Boom and Fusion, where I've seen many ppl being very touched by the work. Right now I'm in a pause to integrate all the work done, but I do look forward to join another LAB as soon as I will feel the right time has come. It's great to know that I have this tool I can always go back to, to catch my gremlin's newest skills, keep on distilling my Bright Principles, and go back to the "Chair" to process the deepest emotions stuck in the depth of my body.